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thank You God for giving me brave and strength .
i did it though its not a well done :(
cause its the first time. really the first haha

one thing i dont understand is i dont know how and why i do that.
even with my first and my second ex i never let my self or let them do like what i did just now .

look like a stupid with this fast heartbeat .
dag dig dug run after me
one hour passed but still my heart was beating fast faster and even fastest

zzzzzzzzzz stupid stupid stupid
why do i do thaaaaaaat?
im still a child haha

but im sure one day, i’ll give the real one, the special one and the best one :)
for whom?
FOR MY HUSBAND OF COURSE :D HAHHAHA
(note: i dont know yet who’s my husband -_-)

what do you do behind my back ?

hi :)
bsk ujian kimia dan aku menyentuh buku nya saja pun ga niat (bagus!) wkwkwk
kayaknya lebih baik aku disini cerita sama tumblr haha lebih aman dan gak buat sakit hati kayak orang yang diluaran sana hmmm
baiklah,

kadang apa yang kita terima belum tentu sama dengan apa yang kita berikan.
yesterday i gave you an apple but today im not sure i will get an apple as well.
belum tentu hari ini aku juga dapat apel darimu.
bisa saja kau kasih aku racun
ato mungkin biji apel nya
ato mungkin apel , tapi apel yang busuk ato apel yang berulat, whatever .

well, aku bukan mau bicara tentang apel disini. bukan ! -__-

im just wondering “HOW CAN A PERSON GIVE ME SO MUCH HURT WHILE IM GIVING MY KINDNESS ALL THE WAY”
Heran ya, aku baik sama mu selama ini, aku gak pernah neko neko, GAK PERNAH JADI ULAR DI BELAKANG MU ! tapi ternyata kau BERMAIN di belakang ku ! HAHA

Bukannya tidak bisa membalas,
aku bisa saja bermain lebih ngeri dari permainan mu tapi aku sadar kalo karma itu masih ada. karma does still exist !
bukan aku nanti yang balas perbuatan mu tapi pasti ada.
pasti akan ada yg balas.
“what you get is what you plant”
aku masih percaya itu. jadi, TERUSKANLAH TERUSKANLAH ! HAHA

ingat ya, aku gak akan mengubah sikap ku ke kau ! aku masih tetap kayak yang dulu. aku masih akan tetap baik sama mu dan bersikap seperti semua biasa saja.
Hanya saja sekarang AKU UDAH CUKUP TAU KAU SIAPA !!!
AKU UDAH TAU GIMANA KAU SEBENARNYA dan aku gak akan kasi tau sampai kau sendiri yang sadar kalau kau itu udah “NGAPAIN” DI BELAKANG KU :)
makasih ya !

GBU

soundtrack : peterpan - dibelakang ku (LOL :P)

Kau peluk aku sebelum membunuhku
Tersenyum melihatku merenung melihatmu
Kau menungguku menunggu ku terjatuh
Setiap langkah tertuju setia dalam menunggu

Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku
Mengapa tak kau tunjukkan dihadapanku
APA YANG KAU LAKUKAN DI BELAKANG KU
Dibelakangku dibelakangku dibelakangku….

tired

hi tumblr !
long time no see .

well, i come here because it might be a safe place to speak (and cry maybe :P) without no one knows .

here it is.
i dont know what exactly i feel and its happened since three days ago .
it really kills me softly .
i dont know what happened with him , i dont know what happened with me and i dont even know what happened with US . HELLOOOOO !!!!
where am i ? where are you ? i need you :(
am i too paranoid ? tell me if i am .
now i realize that i start of being affraid .
affraid of what ? do you know ?
affraid of losing you !
*sigh

im a fool now, i cant believe it .
ive promised myself not to fall with anyone .
i think i can but suddenly i start falling a lil bit.
deep deeper and now im falling deepest .
till i cant let this feeling go away . really i cant outta this love .

oh please nadet, get over yourself .
love? no, its just a sweet damn thing that you cant really have ! bullshit .

now GOD, i dont know what to do and i hope You bless me, bless him and bless both of us .
now i try to hold on .
i will hold on , yes i will .

fragille heart,
nadeth